Self-care is not a reward for being responsible or for working hard. You don’t ‘deserve’ or ‘not deserve’ to be nice to yourself.
You are an alive person and rather than thinking of self-care as incentives or bonuses you can get by adhering to and succeeding at abled standards (at a detriment to your health), you can think of it as: making deposits of self-esteem by caring for yourself and allowing yourself nice things and feelings.
You don’t have to deplete yourself to empty before filling yourself back up again. You can do nice things for yourself before you hit the bottom.
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